Posts by alie:
I’ve only talked about our infertility problems once here, on the first post of this blog. It’s not an easy thing for me to talk about, and when I do, I usually cry (I hate crying, it makes me feel so weak!) And it’s not really infertility – I’ve been pregnant twice – so I don’t really know what to call it. But it’s been 2+ years since our last failed pregnancy and over a year since we’ve stopped preventing, so that qualifies as infertility, right? I really don’t know.
Can I just say that it sucks? That it’s been over 2 years since our tubal pregnancy and it still bums me out (I honestly wonder if that will ever completely go away? I don’t think so). I mean, sure – day to day I’m totally fine and so content with the life we have here in Austin. I am so dang happy with Tyler – I feel so lucky to be his wife. He is so funny and easy-going, he is kind and patient. Tyler is one of the best people I have ever known. I for reals lucked out in the husband department and I am forever grateful for that. And we are so happy here – it’s hard to be so far from family & old friends, but we have it so good here!
So I feel like I am in a much better place emotionally than I was a few years ago. I can look past the failed pregnancies and our current infertility and see all the wonderful blessings we enjoy. But there is still a part of me that wonders why us – why is it taking us so long now – why is life so unfair? Wah, wah, wah. I know it’s immature to think like that and I know I’m better than that (I hope I’m better than that!). And part of me thinks that we’re lucky we don’t have kids yet. Moving to Austin and downsizing to a 630 square foot apartment with NO JOBS! That was a crazy gamble but it’s paid off so well, thankfully! And we’re working hard to pay off all our debt (consumer + student loans). We couldn’t have done all that we have if we had a baby already. So these warring sides of me – I’m both grateful and sad that we don’t have kids yet. And then I feel guilty for being glad to be childless. Color me confused!
But we’ve got plans to kick this infertility crap in the butt. I’ve got to find an obgyn here in Austin and start there. I do believe that we will get this figured out and have a baby, one way or another :)
One thing that we really enjoy about Austin is all the beautiful nature all over the city. There are several nature preserves, especially around the area we live. It makes it difficult to navigate the city (you’ve got to go far out of your way to go around the preserves, instead of driving straight through) but it sure does make for a gorgeous place to live.
(photo by Tyler) We couldn’t really figure out why there are fire hydrants down there, but it was interesting for sure.
On our way back we came across this really old truck buried in the riverbank. To the right of this picture there are some cliffs, with an almost sheer drop into the riverbank area. We wondered if the truck had driven off the side of the cliff and crashed down here. Sad to think about! It’s obviously been down there for ages.
It was a beautiful hike, right in the middle of the city. I definitely want to go down there again in the spring. I think it will be even prettier with all the trees green and in bloom.
We went to San Antonio this weekend. It was so fun to play tourist and spend a few hours wandering around. Tyler’s Mom flew into to San Antonio, it was nice to see some family! Neither of us are homesick, but it is weird not being able to just go visit friends/family. We bought a super-fancy inflatable mattress, so we are ready for more visitors! :)
Also, how crazy is it that girls can go on missions at 19 now? I think it’s awesome, but boy oh boy – having the age of elders & sisters so close – I think they are in for trouble! Though I do think it is great that boys & girls will both be able to leave on their missions earlier, it is a good change, I think.
One of the job interviews I went on last Friday was by Lake Travis. This would be my drive to work every day.
Isn’t it so gorgeous? I love all the trees and how they canopy over the road. It is just so pretty here.
We moved! Whaaaaaat? This is the problem with not blogging regularly – so much stuff happens and catching up on the blog seems impossible, so I don’t post. Then more stuff happens and I still don’t update – on and on and on and on.
So where are we? Austin!! TEXAS!! We are SO happy to be back in Texas. We arrived on September 2 – around 9:30 pm and unloaded our Beverly Hillbillys Truck & Trailer
We stopped somewhere in the middle of Arizona for a quick break/check the tarps. Truck doesn’t look too bad, right?
Sorry the picture is so blurry. Isn’t the tarp such a mess! All the rope & bungy cords. So classy! After 20+ hours of driving the tarps on the truck were beat up. We kept stopping and adding rope to keep everything tied down. It was a mess by the time we got here. But at least we arrived all in one piece – it took us a couple of hours (in the dark!) to unload the truck and trailer. The next morning we were in for a huge mess.
We’ve got a tiny apartment, just enough space to suit our needs.
It took us nearly the whole week to get settled in. A lot of our tchotchkes and clutter is still in boxes – there’s just not enough room in our little apartment for everything. Luckily our storage closet off the patio is big enough to store our boxes of junk.
I need to tidy up and post some pictures of our apartment all clean and organized. It will probably be a few days before I finally get that posted because Tyler & I have interviews on Friday! Let’s all cross our fingers that we both get hired!!